Ponderings

He is Good

So, I’ve been thinking a lot about trusting God lately. (Or, maybe more like how I don’t always.) Thinking about believing Him and His promises even when my story doesn’t seem to be heading in the direction I’d prefer it head in. About believing He is good when my story doesn’t look all that good to me at the moment… or, feel anywhere near good… or, maybe just downright bad for far too many pages.

Like when all I really want is to feel some peace and joy, but can only seem to find fear and sadness.

Like when I look around and can only seem to see the tearing down, when I know He is in the business of building up and remaking.

Like when the long prayed about situation goes bad
… or, the job goes bad
… or, the marriage goes bad
… or, the kid goes bad
… or, the health goes bad
… or, the news is bad
… or, it’s real bad and it all just seems so bad, I feel it just may bust me apart at the seams.

Because… honestly, the bad can seem to totally outweigh all the good all too often. It can suffocate and overwhelm. It can make me all kinds of tired and just want to curl up or give up. Then… with all that counting up of all that is bad, I can simply become too blind to see any of the good and begin to doubt Him and His Goodness.

When it all seems to be breaking bad, is He still working it all out for my good? And, what if He chooses to take all I find good and leave me sitting in a story of my worst nightmares? Is He still good – or, good enough, then? Would I truly trust Him then?

See, I really hope it’s just me, but these are the places I struggle when my story seems to be stuck in the Bad-lands and I think I may have landed in the Gonna-Be-Like-This-Forever-land. I can even sometimes wonder if it’s going to get worse. Like, am I gonna wake up one day to find my story looking more like the pages of Job’s story. Because, really… I’m nothing like Job. My faith WILL fail and I fear I would want to curse God and die, like Job’s wife suggests. And, I’m so afraid this will be my downfall. Where I’m finally found out to be the faithless fraud I fear myself to be. (Note: Though it is truth that His Grace is always sufficient and would find me even in that place, I still battle to believe and remain convinced of it, so maybe that’s just another post for another day…)

So… would I still believe God is good if I, like Job, had all I loved stripped from me? Would He – alone – be good enough for me then? Or, would He only be good if He restored it all back to me? Is He only good when my life is mostly good and only filled with minimal bad? Because, truthfully, I’m bound to get bound up by all the bad unless He comes through with all kinds of good…

Good like the promises that He will never leave nor forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:8). Good like promises of life in abundance (John 10:10) and joy inexpressible (1 Peter 1:8). Good like promises of rest and burdens lifted (Matthew 11:30, Isaiah 10:27). Good like the promised indwelling of the Holy Spirit and all the knowledge, wisdom, and good gifts that come from Him (1 Corinthians 3:16, Galatians 5:22-23). Good like having the same power that raised Jesus Christ from the dead (Ephesians 1:19-20). Good like the preparations that are taking place in Heaven for those that belong to Him (John 14:3, 1 Corinthians 2:9). Good like every good and perfect gift that is from Him (James 1:17). Good like being adopted as His children and being co-heirs with Christ Jesus (Romans 8:15-17, Ephesians 1:5). Good like the promise that Jesus sits at the Father’s right hand and lives to make intercession when the Accuser lives to point the finger (Romans 8:34). Good like promises for hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11) and that ALL things WILL work out for good according to His Good purpose (Romans 8:28).

And, just beyond all that good, hangs the greatest good by far. Because, on The Cross, Christ hung up for good and it was finished and final and by His wounds, we are healed… by His chains, ours are broken… by His bearing all our sin, we are free from wearing any of our sin… and by His death, we now live in and with Him forever!

See, while I am busy asking Him for what I think is all for my own good in my own story, I have been brought into His Good and Greater Story and He is remaking me through every page… both the good and bad ones – and, yes, possibly even the stuff of my worst nightmares.

Yet, still I ask… is that good? Is God still good even when my story goes terribly bad? If He allows my story to be penned with some of those worst pages will I still be able to find His Great Goodness?

I pray I will. Because, I know He will.

Because, it is actually His Story that tells us that the worst day in all of creation became the best day for all of His Creation. That His Goodness shown brightest – even in those darkest hours – when Jesus willingly bore all of our bad, completely and totally for our all of our good. When He, who knew no sin, became sin for us so that we could become the righteousness of God (2 Corinthians 5:21).

So, while I may sometimes choose to look at the bad and then question His Good, I need only look back to the worst pages of His Story, believing it was truly for the best of all of our stories, to receive the only good thing that I truly need.

Good Friday

The best day of all. End of Story.

Isaiah 53:
Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?
He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
He was despised and rejected by mankind,
a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.
Surely he took up our pain
and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
stricken by him, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
By oppression and judgment he was taken away.
Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was punished.
He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.
Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
and though the Lord makes his life an offering for sin,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.
After he has suffered,
he will see the light of life and be satisfied;
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities.
Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,
and he will divide the spoils with the strong,
because he poured out his life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
and made intercession for the transgressors.

6 thoughts on “He is Good”

  1. When you ref. Job I really got your point do we find God good when we lose everything or do we only find God good when he restores everything ? Sadly I think maybe ashamedly I admit and I would guess like most we find God good when he restores. That’s easier isn’t it? Keeping writing I love your blog and you BYW lol.

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    1. That’s the rub. Do we love Him for His gifts or for the ultimate gift? I just ultimately want to see His Goodness ALL the time and regardless. Works in progress are we all 😘 Thankfully, He doesn’t quit on us!

      Thanks for all your engagement, too ❤ I’m embarrassed to ask, but I really don’t know what “BYW” means… 😉

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  2. Ruth, I like James 1:17. We all are so not like our Lord. We seem to think we know best, we know what is good. But then, I am reminded that God is in control and through our FAITH we must trust him, bad or good. As I walk with him I am reminded of God’s grace and mercy on us, sinners !!!
    Love, Dad

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